”Resilient… highly contagious. Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it’s almost impossible to eradicate. An idea that is fully formed - fully understood - that sticks; right in there somewhere…. The smallest seed of an idea can grow. It can grow to define or destroy you.” -Inception
I bet you could never tell
That I knew you didn’t know me that well
It is my fault you see
You never learned that much from me
Oh you silly stupid pastime of mine
You were always good for a rhyme
And from the first, to the last time, the signs
Said ‘Stop’ - but we went on whole-hearted
It ended bad, but I love what we started
— Fiona Apple Parting Gift
Going to pieces
I know you,
unlike the others,I know your heart,
like the pictures
important people call art.I find solitude,
within your point of view,
I fear this world,
without you,
without
whatever it is
you do,
I find myself,
desperately coming,
endearingly unglued.
On admiration
Ok forget the humanity,
and understand humility,
I enjoy broken words,
spun to a silly,
manner of comma filled poetry,
I have a need,
an obsession,
with your words,
mixed with mine,
in a harmony,
without apology.
Every night I forget who I am,
I dawn the pseudonym of wisdom,
to Remove the pressure of my true name,
I forget what it’s like to feel pain,
I forget days lived in shame,
I do this to free myself,
from responsibility,
I do this to remove myself,
from life’s influence on who i want to be.
I do this, To write blindly,
Standing at the ocean today,
I had a thousand thoughts.
Lines of poetry slipping
through my fingers
like sand.
I filled my pockets
with seashells
hoping somehow
I’d take a piece of this moment
home with me.
I wanted to belong
to where the ocean
and the sky touched,
where the world
seems to end,
where the waves wash
over the sand.
Old draft two
Visions manifest,
in the backs of intellects,
as the pen sweats,
wet black ink,
in lines about a wink,
and the eye that never blinks,
frozen still, for you I quill,
writings about heat,
and portrait of loving,
the one that your hugging,
a quiet image locked inside,
little lines about spending time,
thinking about you winking,
and effect of a heart singing,
well that was what I was.
Thinking,
when you were blinking.
Provision of Life
I will not
cease to see
until there is no air to breathe
and room to be
I’ve stolen meaning
With my eyes
At everything I look
And turned it back
Unfurled like lotus.
Stealing,
Searching,
Absorbing,
Images incessantly rolling over
Streaming through the stems of veins.
Promises bargained for
Continuity of warmth
Brought from sight,
Provision of life.
Ode to Paper Bag
I watch as ghostly breath escapes your parting lips,
words of cursive,
running together.
Laughter with a smile worn so well.
So this is how it felt
When the earth began to melt
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
‘Cause I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up
I got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
-Quote from Paper Bag by Fiona Apple
Loudest Silence
These are the quiet moments I relish alone
With a fixed stare and a racing mind
A steady breath and a beating heart
These are the moments of my loudest silence,
my years in seconds.
Spinning threads
of memories together
with robbed words and distorted hopes.
Weave a blanket
to shade my windows.
Prevent the darkness
of truth from
spilling through the pane of delicate glass,
setting my soul ablaze
igniting the fire of reality.
Spring Point Lighthouse
wrote this a while back but couldn’t post it because it was a Christmas gift for a friend who also happens to follow me on tumblr :)
A beacon incandescent in the sunless night
Diminishing doubt and releasing resolve
with strength of light
Rooted deeply in the coast
Rising high in form and spirit
from the depths of the ocean
Forever to remain as a
searching eye in the fog
Held dear to the heart of Maine
And those held captive
by unforgiving arms of fog
Enveloping in obscurity.
Forever and always
Standing steadfast
Untouched by the aging hand of time
What is Poetry
you’re born, you live,
you breathe, you dieyet there are some
who capture every oxygen
molecule that enters their blood
and they store it in a jar
so the world can gaze
at the science of life and deaththey call this poetry
Words Like Ashes
Take these words
That fall from my mouth
like ash softly drifting
to the ground
silently succumbing to gravity
Violently disrupted by the
Gentle breath of fleeting breezes
Sift through my sentences
And search for remnants of
Tarnished beauty
Now enveloped with the sullen
Grey of ash.
Such fragile beauty
Deteriorating from cover of shadows
You held words
Like ashes
In your hands
And shaped them
to resemble what you thought was meant.
This
reduced words and beauty to ashes
Reject 32
If love moves into coherence
as a form of confession,
slipping past beauty and any
theories we had for negotiating it
onto the roof to take home,
we’ve overstayed our welcome
and must force happiness
into hands into pockets.-C.S. Henderson
I wonder if you remember.
It’s something I’ll never forget.
Maybe the memory of me
is starting to fade
for distance doesn’t change
and the ocean still is deep.
We’ve used handfuls of words
like sand, connecting invisible lines
from cloud to cloud.
I feel everything
deteriorating.
